Momawar

 I never really knew the true impact of grief until I lost my Father nearly two years ago. Approaching the age of 50 is an awakening to so many things. I have loved and lost in my 49 years of life, but my hardest hit was my Dad. I am still at such a crossroads in my own head on how to live my life all the while knowing that the rest of it is without the man who raised me. Who helped me become the woman that I am today. Crazy thing is, we all know that we are going to lose the ones we love someday or they will lose us first, but it still does not prepare you for the insane emotions that replace all sense of happiness and bright outlooks on the future. Suddenly, life becomes dark and dreary and downright sad. I have had to navigate these waves of emotions and it has not been easy. I tried traditional and organic methods. Unfortunately, the grief and life change was too overwhelming that I became very ill. So physically ill that I was scared that I was dying. Extreme weight loss, no a...